I want to be Irish. I don’t know why. Perhaps it’s simply of consequence of American buffet style identity politics. You must be something in America, and it’s very hard to be American. No one is American, unless, well you are Native American and that’s not exactly American is it? American is the identity that some (white) people forced over those Native Americans, a supra-identity that was more club membership than a definition of character and heritage.
So friends and teachers and employers always recognized me as Irish. It was my “Mc” name and my brown hair and my writerly disposition. Americans have reacted to me as though there were some intrinsic Irishness that I couldn’t root out, a genetic expression rendered subtly in my personality.
But the Irish remind me I am not Irish. That identity is past recollecting, except in the general abstract recollection of the entire Irish people. Except in being Irish rather that from Cork or Munster or members of the Fianna (once upon a time). This is why St. Patrick’s Day is so popular in America: it isn’t just that “everyone’s Irish” on St. Patrick’s Day, it’s that on St. Patrick’s Day it is perfectly acceptable to honor your heritage in the most abstracted manner. No one remembers the feast days for the patron saints of their villages, everyone celebrates Patrick, and drinks Guinness (rather than a more local brew) and laughs about fairies, lepherchauns, and green things. One day for an identity lost. Raise your glasses!
No, my family were not there to be Fenians in the late 1880’s or Provisionals at the Easter Uprising. They didn’t wage guerilla war on British Black & Tans. They did not defiantly speak Irish. They did not ratify the treaty that bifurcated Ireland. They never voted in an Irish election.
I have never heard a family member recite Irish. We speak English. We hold American passports, and vote in American elections.
And all the while, we carry forward names whose previous holders we can only thinly see as we look back over the sea wondering at an origin.
-ZM